Monday, May 3, 2010

Ian Brown - Always Remember Me

Love this song. Ian Brown's Always Remember Me.



The day trip over
A tangerine sun
Becomes blood red sun splashed horizon
You walked yourself into the wilderness
I wondered there did you ever guess
You'd always remember me
Always remember me
Always remember me
Always remember me

Those were the days when
We had it all
And these are the times
I got so much more

The day trip over
A tangerine sun
Becomes blood red sunblessed horizon
You walked yourself into the wilderness
I wondered there did you ever guess
You'd always remember me
Always remember me
Always remember me
Always remember me

Led the pack
Then off the track at the bend
We learnt that all good things do truly
Come to an end
Dippers and trippers
Paint on the walls
Those were the days friend
We had it all
And these are the times
I got so much more
Always remember me
Always remember me
Always remember me
Always remember me

To Cool or not to cool.

Disclaimer: This post might sound highly immodest. That was not the idea. And if you think that is what it is, I don't really give a rat's ass.

Everyone has been through a phase in their lives where they try and try to fit in with the others. To be cool. I went through that phase too I guess. Back in high school. Though I didn't realize it then, I guess I was trying to fit in with rest of the 'cool-gang'. I already had my own spot. I was the funny-guy. I was witty, well-mannered, and quite funny. Everyone loved my company. All the girls loved my smart-alec remarks. When they were not busy with the 'cool-gang' that is. See, everyone wanted to chill with me, but no one wanted to date me. :) But i thought i was cool. Till I came to class 12.
I had moved towns and went to a small town, where my Dad was commanding a batallion. Here I was the coolest teenager on arrival. I played 3 different sports every evening, was a regular at the golf club, well mannered and well cultured. Parents would cite my example and tell their kids that they should be more like me. No kidding! And i joined the best highschool over there. On my first day at class I realized that here I dont need to try to be cool anymore. No one was. Everyone was the studious kinds, and their idea of fun was mischevious pranks.
That was when I realized I really didnt need to be cool. I just needed to be myself. And I started being myself. And I liked what I was. And since then till date, I have mostly been myself. I am sure there must have been a few instances where I must have deviated and tried to be cool, but they were quite rare for sure. I just didn't care anymore. I was just myself. No need to be something else. No need to be anything else. Just be.

Then I went to college. In the biggest city I had been to in my life so far. And I still didn't try to fit in. I didn't care about fitting in. I felt people should like me for what I am. And they did. I had developed friendships that were supposed to last a lifetime. And some of them are. But the funny part is that I was considered cool. Those close to me liked it when I slouched in class and not sitting ram-rod straight. They liked it that I never worried too much about anything. That I was the one who had a calm head around when any shit hit any fan. They turned to me for advice, comfort, help. Over the years, the same attitude caused people to think i am too cold, without emotion. And now its come back a full circle. I'd stopped trying to be cool 10 years ago. And now some feel that I am still trying to be cool by not trying. I don't give any explanations. :) I won't try to be anything else other than what I am. And I really don't care about most things. I just want to be. You should too.